
Kak Nor. nice face i see there... *cabut!*

Shazni & buruk-est face.
firstly.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUMAIYAH A.K.A SIEW MAI AH!
nineteen years old hehss..
dont be naughty ah big girl.
i meet you real soon baby.
missing you too much already.
that goes the same to all my girls and F4.
secondly,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO NUR KHALISHAH A.K.A LISHAH.
she is another 17 year old gergerl.
havent been meeting her but i might want to plan on meeting her to have a mini catch up session.
we'll, we gotta see how things goes.
i mean, we are all busy with our own stuffs, looking for time to satisfy each others' needs.
so bla bla bla.
my time is limited, i'll see how much i can update.
havent been online the past days due to exhaustion and stuffs like that.
uh huh..
so, TGIF for yesterday.
been waiting for that day and yes, it arrived.
its weekend by the way.
was in morning shift yesterday and i was up real early.
went out of the house at 5.30 and headed to CGH.
dragging my feet to the hospital.
met with kak nad at bedok's platform and off we went.
day went off pretty fine, more breaks this time.
nothing much to do except for being assessed by anita.
so bleahs.
i was busy entertaining people who are senile, and having mental problems.
it was sooo fun that the time passed so fast!
lots of my favourite patients were discharged.
pretty sad thing though.
so after work, i met with cousins and headed to eastpoint.
had a little chill out session while passing the time to break fast.
andi, nana, shazni and kak nor.
then cabbed down to tampines's teh tarik at st 21 and had our break fast there.
then went to shazni's place.
on the wayy, bought this horror movie and some chips to last us for the night before sahur.
watched the ghost story and then made our way to the nearby macdees at tampines mart.
had time talking to shazni and kak nor.
at last its some serious talk.
hehehe.
time was already 3am.
by 4.15am, we wanted to buy food for sahur.
it went off pretty crazy how shazni and i talked nonsense.
some inside jokes i suppose.
even if i were to tell, you'll find it lame.
hehs.
went up and didnt sleep.
played on andi's PSP.
pretty crazy game.
surprisingly, i dont go about twisting and turning the whole PSP to show how much i was engrossed with the game.
some racing game.
then we had a great laugh after sahur.
everyone talked nonsense.
hogwash!
nothing that came from our mouth made sense!
even bik yana joined us!
*wide smile*
decided to play on PS 2 and yet another racing game for me.
heee.
i sucked in driving but surprisingly, i did fairly well for bikes race!
hahaha.
time was already 7.30am and we decided to rest our eyes before heading home.
woke up ay 8.15 and washed up.
without having my bath, i just made my way home.
back home right now and waiting for the time to pass.
gotta have show with abang later.
meeting at his place at 1pm.
i'ma go for a thread first before heading to his place.
will be walking i guess.
save money.
im pretty scared right now.
damnsss.
i just got back from the loo.
well, i dont know if i am still having my period or i am having hematuria.
i dont care if its period. i can break fast.
its still early, not much loss.
but if its hematuria...
well...
god knows heh.
damns.
im thinking too much right now.
i hope its good news baby.
please.
but if its period, it was over since the past 2 dayssss.
so why now then it comes back?
irregular?
or..
PLAYING TRICKS ON ME?!my god, please be good news.
not hematuria alright.
to that person, well done.brilliant job.i love you for that.well, i love challenges.soon you'll know.i'ma bless you my child.you know, when something is not meant to be yours..it can NEVER be yours.
like i usually mention "if you love something let it go, if it comes back, then thats how you know"
in text reference Marques Houston, Circle.
sometimes in love, you gotta understand that, the one you love may not be the one you live to die for.
it has been some time since i last emo-ed myself.
i shall make this sacrifice to know what's best for me.
just bear with me just this instance.
who knows you might feel the same way too.
it's human nature that sorrow tend to outweigh the positive feelings that you have.
i mean, even the most beautiful person on earth does not live the most beautiful life.
so here i stand, telling myself to make the right choice in life.
blame me if i made the wrong choice, bless me if the step that i take is the best for me.
okay.
i gotta stop thinking too much.
i wanna pack my stuffs for the show.
just beep me at my phone.
fact : i did something mean. i guess, i just have to.