what's with people and having their PMS these days?
simply affecting those innocent ones.
having to deal with these goddamn people.
in a way or rather, i don't know what BIG fault i have done.


shitty things that happened to me JUST this week :
1 ) low on prepaid.
2 ) lost 7 bucks.
3 ) dealing with people who want things their way.
4 ) declared bankruptcy.
5 ) screwed Foundation Of Nursing's presentation.
6 ) Super duperly, did not do well in powerpoint slides.
7 ) lost of books.
8 ) tonnes of assignments.
9 ) getting fatigue easily.
10 ) bodyaches.
11 ) 2, 1000 words essay.
12 ) 2 more presentations to go.
13 ) TRYING to get along with people who simply just, find fault with me.

on the whole : life is never always pleasant. even depressants don't help i guess. then why bother to take it eh? time waster? i believe so.

;; NO RESPONSE IS THE WORST RESPONSE.

today was red alert day.
everything was so fine until it reaches towards the end of the day.
damn!
went to school, stupid julie, she didn't bring her bioscience book.
to make the time useful,i studied for clinical.
sheesh.
bioscience lecture, was playing wheel of fortune with kai and hawa.
shhh.
god knows why we played that.
julie and kai created our own riddles.
after lecture, went for an hour break.
ate breakfast at Koufu.
and went to clinical.
so kai was telling us a very disheartening gossip.
sheesh!
we learnt about nasogastric tubing.
damn damn damn.
im imagining how i am going to insert the tube into the nostrils of those comatose patients and push it down all the way to the oesophagus and down to the stomach.
damn.
what's best.
we have to check if the tube is really into the stomach.
if the tube is in the lungs, the patients will have pneumonia.
the lungs will be flooded.
after learning about that, we went for critical thinking.
it was diana's group presentation for today.
their question was about APPENDICITIS.
so great.
kai, juliieeee and aishah wants to irritate them by asking them so many questions.
haha.
so we tested their intelligence.
it seems that azrin do know alot.
tak fair.
he is an EN.
haha.
great job you guys.
audrey (lecturer), told us to do a reflection.
from the first presentation, which was my group, then down to kai's presentation, then to joy's and lastly diana's.
we were suppose to vote for the best group.
i voted for azrin's
though it was a short one.
surprisingly, my group won the best group.
haha.
i got nominated as the few best speakers too.
but too bad.
kai and i were helping each other.
so we voted for each other since we got nominated too.
those who were nominated were, julie,kai, azrin,garyson,joy, lili, liu lei, li yan and zhe ting.
sadly.
julie and kai lost!
ahahaha!
no problem about that.
after lesson, met liyana at mac and went back home.
took my laptop and went out again.
liyana was waiting at the void deck.
headed to cityhall.
sat at marina square's starbucks and configure our wireless there.
saw brendon, ardy, bhai and so many others.
both of us were online till about 7 plus and we went to CAVANA to eat.
to my surprise, i LOST MY 7 BUCKS!!
that brought the mood down.
liyana was laughing at how much i was stressed.
come on man!
i saved that since last monday!
it took me two days to save that and i decided to keep it.
before i could even had a taste of it, it was gone!
next moment, liyana realised, she lost 10 bucks!
damn.
what a day!
seriously.
i don't know where those money ran to!
i was so stressed up!made our way to esplanade.
while on the way, someone came up to me and said "ahh. my friend wanna get to know you."
sorry to say this okay.
she was bengkok.(faham-faham eh).
she looks like a tomboy.
i smiled and said "ahh.."
she was asking my name.
so i told her "oh. you can call me julie"
she said "oh. hie julie. yah. can ?"
i asked "your friend is a guy right?"
for a second, i realised it was rude of me!
but i couldnt help it.
dah tercakap.
nak buat aper
then i said "ohh. sorry eh. i dont think i want lah. sorry"
she was like "oh. taknak eh? hehe. takper lah"
i smiled and walk off.
i was teaching liyana.
"eh norlin, kalau kau nak turn off guys. diorang mintak number kau, kau buat2 sengau. lepas tu kau act bisu"
she said nothing.
she was laughing like a hyena.
i even demonstrated.
in fact, we both were lunatics lah!
sat by the bay.
not long, it was drizzling.
we took shelter inside while watching a show.
left cityhall at 9.15pm.
early though.
something changed her mood.
i decided to leave her alone.
i dont wanna ask too many questions.
in fact,i had known what happened.
so ya.
chill love.
im online now.
listening to Johari Window.
updating my blog.
its already 12 plus in the morning.
i'm gonna have a dance practice in the day at 2-6pm.
will be meeting mihah and the rest after that.
the last meeting before mihah leave for her holiday.
my holiday will start from 9th june.
gonna start mugging for my exams.
gonna start on presentations and sorts like that.
damn.
time fly so fast.

im going off ah.
lost my mood while blogging.
suay day.
see ya loves.
goodnight.

fact : can we live a day without all those?

Cokelat - Karma

Sekian lama kita bersama
Ternyata kau juga
Sama saja

Kau kira kupercaya semua
S'gala tipu daya
Oh percuma

Kau buat sempurna awalnya
Berakhir bencana
Selamat tinggal sayang...
Bila umurku panjang
Kelak ku 'kan datang'
Tuk buktikan satu balas 'kan kau jelang
Jangan menangis sayang
Ku ingin kau rasakan pahitnya terbuang
Sia-sia, memang kau pantas dapatkan

Akhirnya, usai sudah semua
Kudapat tertawa
Bahagia
S'lalu tampak indah awalnya
Berakhir bencana

Photos of last sunday.
went to Fuchun CC to watch PENTAS LESTARI SENI.
so yeah.
im currently shagged.
i shall post a brief one tonight.
i can go schizo at any point of time.
swear im furrrking fatigue right now.
woke up from my sleep.
the moment i got home, i chucked my bag one side and went to take a nap.
the whole day, i was in school.
woke up at 7 and went to school with liyana.
had lessons as per normal.
had bio practical.
i cant wait to see a cadabra or whatever fuck the spelling is lah.
like ezzat said :screw spelling.
then, had biology lecture.
LOVE IT LOADS!
for once, im concentrating on my lesson!
im loving learning about bones.
for a second, i realised how much our bones can be subdivided.
from frontal to occipital and things like that.
even each part of our spinal vetebrae has a name!
haha!
that's why i love sciences.
after lecture, went to the gym with azrin and hawa.
aishah came later.
worked on my abdomen, biceps and triceps.
did my cycling too.
did my run on the threadmill too.
then, we discussed for a KL trip after our attachment.
sometime in october.
now, its time to save money.
i need to save up a $2000 at least by end of this year.
then,i can not only go to KL.
we might even go to batam as a class trip and have a chalet.
after the gym, was suppose to have my ladies' hour.
but it was cancelled because there were no female who went.
haha.
in the whole gym, the 3 of us were the only girls.
after the gym, had my first meal of the day.
i was famished!
while eating, i laughed my freaking ass out.
was creating nonsense.
as usual lah.
especially about the KL trip.
because, we might want to step up to KL's Zouk.
so yeah.
God's will, we might go.
we walked to the train station, only to realised we laughed too much.
it's good you know.
works on your abs and face muscles.
and laughing makes you look young.
research have shown that singaporeans who are adults tend to laugh lesser.
that is not good.
we must initiate the laughters.
they realised that kids are having much more laughters than adults.
therefore, they had this LAME laughing therapy.
alright alright.
im having this "LAZY" disease.
i shall not tell you people about the past days.
i shall not talk about my SCREWED presentations yesterday.
im just disappointed.
i gotta have a reflection session with the rest.
i'll see you people online.
after much attempts on updating my blog, i can do it now.
thank god.
see ya loves.
chiaow!

fact : It's hard to live alone,i
ts hard to choose someone to love,
but the hardest part of falling is
to admit that you have fallen in love
with someone you didn't mean to love from the start...

JAM AND HOP 2008!!!





azrin, cheryl,hawa,julie,aishah,darwin. at the stadium.

before.

cher,juls,shah,hawa,darwin, rose.

ouh baby.we rocked jam and hop.



they were there too. razi,naren,big,hakimsham and afif.


jam and hop 2008.

sweating after getting a little high on the dancefloor.

oh my. i swear to god, it was just an act of john trying to give a peck on the cheek. fernandez,juls and darwin. my partystarter.

ouh yeah.
school was just fine.
aishah didnt come to school.
lepak.
haha.
prepaid is real down.
i cant receive any calls.
so yah. anything msg me people.
was super slack.
today is blue day..
and yes.
i got to know that i will be posted to CGH for my attachment.
so yah.
went back home straight and went out again.
met with dans, aizat and nash to take my hat.
met them at Bagus.
teman them to eat at bagus.
went to telok kurau to take my leaving cert.
i might as well take it.
its like, i havent been finding much time to go there.
northside to eastside. mak oi. lengit sey!
took my cert. didnt expect many to come.
nazirul,syahir, hamid, and those ex sec 5s were there.
while waiting, we took our weight.
nash was surprised with him losing weight.
we saw indra and we bullied him.
haha.
after taking the cert,went home again.
got ready and went out of the house at 6.20.
i thought i was late.
aishah reached first.
then azrin and hawa.
then cheryl.
stepped into jam and hop.
saw uzair.
went inside. OH MY GOD!
i saw AFIF.
how much i missed him.
saw afif, saw hakim sham,big, small and naren!
elly sang to bleeding love.
great show, love.
after a few bands, the dancefloor opens.
thank god, i got to know darwin and fernandez.
they brought the mood up.
well, they are from the philippines.
mass lecture together with us.
but we NEVER talk until today.
dancefloor opens.
i was sweating profusely.
there came a moment when i was dancing and my hands were fanning my armpit.
cannot make it.
feelin' real hot.
darwin, was a nuisance.
i was already sweating, he said "hey! dont stop. come on. everything's good. you're all getting hot."
and he was telling rose "hey hey. relax okay. you're getting abit too high"
hahahahaha!
mana satu tau!
hahaha.
soon, PLAINSUNSET PERFORMED!!!!
but blardy arse.
when they played girl on queen street, we went off.
lepak at the stadium with cheryl, hawa, aishah, azrin, john,darwin and their other two girls.
i was so thirsty.
got some thirst quencher and yar. camwhore ah. apa lagi!
i drank mountain dew, but i talked nonsense like as if i was drunk.
hahaa.
help them to take photos and then john and darwin wanted to take a photo with me.
and john purposely wanted to have a picture that showed him kissing me.
but it was all fake!
hahaha.
john...john.
azrin shouted "JULIE!! CARIK CHANCE AJER!"
i said lah "siaow! diorang yang nak aper!"
cause they were hugging me while taking the photo.
haha.
aishah and hawa, BINGIT!
lols!
they liked him.
and azrin was mocking at them.
he said "julie....HIGH..aishah and hawa, low.."(with his hand gestures.)
with his handsigns.
and they said "boleh catch up ah!"
hahaha.
thats because they said fernandez john was cute.
lol!
i was so innocent sey.
we went off at 10.45pm.
walked to the train station but hailed our cabs there.
on the way to the main road, we were talking cock.
real cock and bull story.
laughed our ass off.
like as if we were high.
but hell no!
hawa took the cab alone. azrin, aishah and julie took the same cab.
dropped azrin at zouk and then sent me off and then aishah.
back home.
chatting with amrul, mihah and razi online.
im off.
see ya'll online!

fact : you can't turn back!

the 'no mood' face

well, that's better.

and mya wanted this fake smile. NAH. for you mya.

omar and mya.



mihah, julie and mya

NO MAKE UP DAY!
today is e-learning day.
i wasn't in school.
from morning, till now.
no mood means no mood.
no mood to make up, no mood to do anything.
didnt meet amrul.
cause i told myself, by 5 if he still shuts up, i will meet them at eunos.
so, yeah.
he did.
i made up my mind to meet the rest.
went out of the house at 6.30pm.
went to mihah's house to pass a dress that she wanted to borrow.
and headed to the void deck to meet mya and omar.
sad thing ezzat wasn't there.
but it's okay.
brought my books along.
studied a little biology.
then, we started our nonsense.
not long after that, haiqel came and lepak with us.
in the end, we rocked the whole of eunos-hood.
laughed a hell lot.
haddy came down too.
so yah.
chatted with them alittle.
amrul wanted to call.
by that time,i was already leaving.
he talked to me on the phone and stuffs like that.
i was on the wayy back home when he called.
not long after, we hang up and i reached home.
went online and chatted with nizam, mihah, mya and afif.
now, everyone went off.
im off too.
got school at 9am later.
so yah.
goodnight people.

fact : maybe we're trying...trying too hard. maybe we're torn apart.

im blogging now because i dont have much mood to blog last night.
the feeling's disastrous.
maybe, running away from what's real is the dumbest thing i could do.
those people should really know, i am not those materialistic girls.
okay okay.
let's stand a distant from all those problems.
they just shortens my lifespan.
dealing with all those stress is already a burden.
school, life.
urgh.


yesterday, again,i went to school alone.
school started at 11am.
and ended at 1pm.
i was so slacked.
went to school in shorts, shirt and slippers.
looking as if i am going for a picnic.
i only had a freaking lecture.
bioscience lecture that is.
went to eat at koufu with aishah and hawa.
then, headed to the gym.
did my exercises.
i gotta work on my abdomen.
those who went for gym, were vanitha, hui yuan, wei ling, aishah and azrin.
i didnt do much.
was suppose to go for my kickboxing.
i ended the gym class halfway.
went off with aishah and azrin.
while walking to the mrt station, we were planning about JAM AND HOP.
so yah.
we are going and meeting at 7 on friday.
met with liyana at town.
she was with her classmates.
khairul and aisyah.
walked around town.
they were loud too.
so yah. we rocked the whole town.
went around to look for poker cards.
went to lucky plaza.
since its a place for all those philippines and thailand people, they do not understand english.
what the hell.
we asked for poker cards, they do not know.
thank god, we found a party shop.
got our poker cards.
went to cityhall underground and they taught me taiti.
julie kental.
tak tau main taiti.
haha.
thanks to khai.
he taught me on how to play.
so yah.
at least right now, i get a giest on how to play.
so, i sat and play with the other 3.
damn lepak.
addictive game i suppose?
we played from 5pm all the way till 8pm.
3 freaking hours we were at the citylink.
went home with liyana.
we were stating our facts about singapore's development.
what the hell.
reached home and went online.
chatted with omar, mihah, mya,azrin,hawa and dans.
azrin was telling me to stay up till 12 plus to do our survey.
went out to eat with brother, mommy and emilya at mackenzie rd.
i was hungry at that time.
my meals are not proper.
i dont know what's wrong with me.
recently, i have been eating alot.
when i got back home it was 12am, azrin chatted with me and we logged on to CMS.
did our survey and stuffs like that.
so much for e learning.
we didnt study a thing.
abang told me to go to cedar at 7am.
they were going to have show at st gabriels' school.
went offline at 1 plus and went to bed.
i forgot to set my alarm till abang called me.
i woke up.
dragged my feet to the toilet.
did my make up.
had a good laugh with abang busu, abang abu and abang rizal.
we were talking about dance stuffs.
and they were mocking at me for my fall during SYF 2007.
kurang asam!
got back home at 9am and slept again.
i was really shagged.
woke up at 2pm.
chatted with mihah, azrin and garyson.
so yeahh.
suppose to be meeting amrul.
but i dont know what happened.
so much for ayat-ayat cinta.
havent heard about him.
so yeah.
im logging off right now.
kinda weak at the moment.
see you people online tonight.
:)

fact : its gonna hurt when it heals too.

anguish?
devastated?
agony?
despair?
im pertubed myself.
swear to god.
currently online.
chatting with mihah, mya, amrul and kai.
been freaking emotional these days.
maybe, its almost time of the month.
whatever it is.
i have to live with it.
damn hungry right now.
today, school was damn relaxed.
went to school alone.
norlin started late.
met aishah and hawa at the mrt ?(usual routine).
first lesson was lecture.
was joking with hawa.
laughing like mad dogs.
for some specific reasons, i shall not say about what happened in school.
i'm sorry to hear about it kai.
we are here for you love. :)
then an hour break.
then clinical lab.
and then off.
done with school.
had group meeting.
did a slack one.
then, went to macdees with azrin,hawa and aishah.
had a good laugh.
i swear.
i laughed till i teared.
phew.
tears of joy!
thanks to julie lah.
she talks nonsense, now the rest are like her.
HOGWASH!
we were the most idiotic specimens ever!
we simply couldnt stop laughing.
azrin can even say "eh! kiter dah macam kena laughing gas"
indeed, we were like hyenas.
even, while walking to the trains we could laugh.
what the hell.
came back home, fetched emilya from school.
went online.
chatted with hawa and kai.
and then, took my bath.
resumed to being online.
im going off soon.
getting real bored.
see ya!

fact : you feel me?

KAU INGINKU MILIKI- Nurun Nuwarah.

pertemuan yang tiada terduga
kini kita saling bermesra.
masa berganti hati diubati mekarnya cinta mula dirasai.

semakin ingin ku cuba luahkan
engkau masih tidak mengerti.
cemburu terasa musnahlah impian
lihat engkau terus direbuti.

berkaliku nyatakan ku sayangkan
padamu namun kau
masih membisu.
kau tak mengerti
ingin kau ku miliki kau menghancuri hati ini.

ku cuba nyatakan rasa cintaku hati masih terus keliru
andai kau fahami isi hatiku yang benar ingin memilikimu.

berkaliku nyatakan ku sayangkan
padamu namun kau
masih membisu
kau tak mengerti
ingin kau ku miliki, kau menghancuri hati ini....

usah bandingkan sejarah lama
kau tahu ku pernah setia.
seribu untuk bercinta lagi
takut dirimu disakiti..

berkali ku nyatakan ku sayangkan
padamu namun kau
masih membisu
kau tak mengerti
ingin kau ku miliki kau menghancuri hati ini........

aizat and dinah.

pfft.

schizophrenic.

these..kills boredom.

on the way to tampines.

hakim,dans,julie,dinah at mc cafe.

betty,deynna & julieee.

after movies.

dinah, give up doing those splits kay? haha.

julieee and dans.

the day we went to YP.


so yah.
we watched CONGKAK in the end.
was suppose to meet at 2.15.
all met later.
met with samihah at Eunos's last cabin.
walked to downtown from pasir ris MRT.
before the movie, they were eating.
when mihah and i reached, aizat,hakim sham, razi,dinah, dans and hakim om were already there.
mihah and i, haven't had lunch.
we headed to macdonalds to have lunch.
after eating, we met the rest outside the movie theatre and went in.
bought popcorn and stuffs like that.
pathetic $8.80 gone.
just a large popcorn with two freaking cans of coke?!
arse.
congkak was a JUST.
i would rate it...3 stars.
the sound system was good.
the storyline...sucks.
cheated my feelings.
haha.
they scared the whole lot of us.
the whole line of seats were occupied by us.
10 people exactly.
starting from the right, mihah, dinah, julie,aizat,hakimom,nash,razi,dans,hakimsham&bob.
haha.
we all planned to shout a hell lot.
haha.
stupid.
the movie ended and then we went to chill at mc cafe.
wanted to go for a second round of movie.
but they changed the plans.
wanted to watch ayat-ayat cinta.
but, it was cancelled.
mihah and hakim om went off.
left, bob,nash,hakimsham,aizat,dans,dinah and razi.
planned to chill somewhere.
after much planning we went to RASA 21 at tampines.
got myself chicken rice.
i felt like eating tomyam noodle.
but they don't have it.
i dont know why, i met with LOTS of attrians.
haha.
saw amalina at first. then lyndah. then ayu.
what the!
went off from tampines at 9.45pm.
took 28 with bob and alighted at haig road.
we managed to exchange stories about nursing.
waited for 26 and headed back home.
on the way home, was already shagged.
smsing with amrul.
reached at almost 11.
currently online.
well, kind of happy.
school starts at 9 and ends at 1.
short day.
but i can bet you that it is going to be tiring.
i am going to have FON-Foundation Of Nursing. a.k.a FULL OF NONSENSE!
then, gonna have clinical practical.
so yah.
i'ma wear slippers tomorrow.
phew!
or else,i will end at 5pm okay!
so yah.
but i will have my study session with my group mates and maybe kai and aishah.
gotta buck up.
exams are around the corner.
i am just informed that this wednesday, i will have practice at Fuchun CC.
so yah.
and i have just checked my schedule that my semester break will be at 9 June to 22June.
haha.
kental kental.
okay.
its already 1:30am.
i have school later.
i better get going.
goodnight loves.

fact : biarkan pena menjadi pengganti airmata...(woot. julie emotional).

time now is almost 1pm.
i had just woke up.
not a beauty sleep.
im blogging right now out of boredom.
i might resume to sleeping i guess.
i had the wildest dream EVER!
i dreamt that i fought with fitri and kak nor because i was having dance practice and they stole my blue jumper.
hahaha!
and then, i was so unhappy with the fact that they had to steal, i started cursing them.
what's funny,my dance practice was in a shopping centre.
and another funny thing was : them, dancing with me.
it then lead to another story which was MUCH weird than the previous dream.
however i don't feel like telling you people about that dream.
haha!
because of those dreams..i had a fun time sleeping.
i slept at 4 till 11am, only knowing that i need the loo badly.
haha.
i continued sleeping.
im still tired though.
i dont even know what time they want to meet.
im taking my time to blog.
haiz.
not having money restricts everything.
i can't have much enjoyment.
i haven't gotten my pay yet.
i have to deal with it.
haiz..
this may be my last.
i'll have to wait until i have gotten my pay.
down with BROKE disease.
okay.
i think i should go off soon.
we will all be meeting at 2.15at downtown.
thank god.
for once, im stepping to east side, after being at the northside for so long.
i am not even ready.
will be meeting dinah, dans,aizat,razi and maybe bob and nash.
haddy won't be joining us cause he is working.
mihah might be joining us too.
why do all good movies come when we are broke?
nevermind.
anything beep me okay darlings.
i'ma buzz off!

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