GOD BLESS US!

THIS IS THE OUTCOME AFTER SO MANY PRACTICES.

AFTER GOING THROUGH SO MANY OBSTACLES.

THE GOOD AND THE BAD!

WATCH AND ENJOY SWEETIES..

MUCH LOVE!

Dancers:

Julyanna

Samihah Bamadhaj

Dinah Aisyah

Raihanah

Nur Khalishah

Suriyann

Siti Fatimah Azzahra

Nur Syahidah

Dhamirah.

AND...

OUR BEAUTIFUL GORGEOUS MDM NURLI FATANAH!!!!!

:)

show's done.
resuming back to old lifestyle.
library will be my second home.

show...
did perfectly fine.
all were enjoying the whole dance.
great show guys.
last show.
did our best.
thanks.
singing...
HAHA!!!!
julie and yann.
recited our prayers before hand.
thank god for being with us.
no problems.
did PERFECT!
haha.
first time.
RAZI SMALL, YOU OWE ME!!
and for helmi, thanks for the pants.
much love.
for aizat..
thanks for the support and I WANT MY MAKE UP BACK!
for muhd hafiz, I LOVE YOU BESTFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!
i love ur remix.
for yann, terima kasih atas bantuan anda kepada si miskin suara ini.
haha!!
to all that support us, I SUPER DUPER LOVE YOU ALL.
for our videoman and photographer, without u, life would be no where.
for naz and arif, THANKS FOR LAUGHING AT MY OFF PITCH!!!
oh yah, had fun with u guys just now.
just 3,perfect!
scandalism attacks!
watched BOURNE ULTIMATUM.
sat centre.
haha.
the theatre was furrkiingg COLD!!!!
me and naz shivering
arif, haha, hugging my hand.
then, went makan.
OMG LA!
damn funny la.
they were telling me, "u imagine ah, O level question ask u, what is the main ingredient for chilli sauce."
all stress.
ten year series, all same question.
mr chang will be stressed teaching us.
hahahahahahaahahaha...
i cant stop laughing with them.

i gtg to the hospital now.
see u all online later at night.
much love.
and and..
to hafizawati,nurizzah and mardiana, thanks for the compliment.
hehe.

:)

everywhere i go...
no matter what i do boy.
i just cant get u outta my head.
but what annoys me,
he wasnt man enough
to come and tell me,
that i was never the one..

back from practice.
worn out.
usual.
which dance practice doesnt tire me up.
missing my dearies.
prelims are here.
did my practical yesterday.
okay. maybe i screw it up
whatever it is.
i went for practice again yesterday
at eunos.
okay, history repeats itself.
dont wish to talk about it.

nothing much happened these days.
just missing my sweet babies.
missing:
kenny clarke kent.
nazirul lex luthor.
arif superman.
mike george loise.
abang hir
hamid sean kingston mama version
ejjatos hear my silent scream.
omarrs time after time.

okay.
i shall admit this.
mohan kills me.
not exaggerating; but he is telling the WHOLE WORLD that he LOVES me!
omg-ish!
and julie omg-ish-ly could not possibly layan him the way he is!
romeo loves juliet->mohan loves julie?!!!!
what in the bloody blue hell!!
he bought me sweets.
HOW SWEET!
YOU ARE TOO YOUNG MANMOHAN S/O MANGAT RAM!!!!!
he fights with nazirul for me la.
the world is turning round.
the sea has a whirlpool!
nazirul also carik pasal with him la.
haha.
that two men!

im tired.
my brain cells are dying.
im off..
i have to rest.
wanna pack my bag for tmr's show.
and im off to bed.
goodnight loves!

:)

those pictures.those days.

that malboro box drawn by mr N remarks mdm Nur's birthday.

now, having prelims.

just now was my english paper.

i was smiling while writing my compo.

at a moment, i feel like breaking down.

my heart was in such pain while writing.

not emo larh!

WHINE UP!

WHINE UP!

WHINE UP!

OHH YEAH!!

okay. aku belo.

tmr will be going to peninsular with fatimah to buy skinny jeans with her.

then, meeting hafiz to get remix from him.

then meeting irritating someone.

out of the blue!

hehe.

then, gonna go home. study.

im off to study now.

i see u all soon.

much love.

will be online. anything, nudge me.

:)

saturday.
dated 25th August.
back from tuition.
had 3 hours of maths.
i really need to do well.
you must be wondering why i haven't been updating my blog.
answer: night classes.
i love night classes.
i dont't know why.
i mean, all we do is study english for two hours.
the next moment, u realised its the end of the session.
had been busy with dance practice too.
i have to end this dance thing.
im gonna sing too.
what luck?
i havent been training my vocals since i was sick.
and when i had my first ever singing rehearsal yesterday.
i felt as if i dont have any hope.
haha!

monday, prelims.
english paper.
i am aiming to be getting a B4 at least.
a 4 would make me feel a little confident for my upcoming O level.
then, will be having mother tongue paper too.
i am going to resume the same old routine.
back in the old days.
to the library ALONE.
not many people would do that u see.
haha.

MY AIMS:
english :B4
Maths: B4
Science: A2
humanities: B3
Malay : A2
Food and Nutrition : A2.
total points : 17 points.

this is for a start ah.
i cant be aiming too high.
or if i'll ever fall, im gonna breakdown.
time to buck up and move on.

what have i been doing for the past days..
hmm.
been having too many boyfriends.
I AM FLIRT!
thanks to Nazirul for that label.
so.
rush hour was great.
i enjoyed so much of it.
maybe this friday, if it is confirmed, might be watching Borne Ultimatum.
friday will be the show.
after that, no no!
been quiet these days in class.
i cant get myself any noisy now.
missing my babes and hunks.

been having problems too.
i shall not disclose.
this is a case of a liar and the bestfriend.
which gets the innocent one involved.
whatever it is, its settled.
good already.


:)

back home once again.
had my study group with dear cousins.
danial hadi and aizat came down too.
went to watch firework with samihah, mya,alieyah,mahesh,khairul,adam and alieyah's bf.
so kecoh.
i have to admit that we were the typical kiasu singaporeans.
hoping to view the fireworks at 8.
but the fireworks started at 9.30
so much for standing.
we couldn't sit either.
it was wet.
what to do? it was after the rain.
met mya first at 6.45
we wanted to grab some food from the fast food restaurant.
went to macdonalds, NOPE. QUEUE WAS UNTIL THE ENTRANCE OF MACDONALDS.
went to KFC. full also.
long john, DONT SAY.
so, we went to 7 eleven.
bought just drinks.
then lepak.
u noe, when girls meet, they tend to talk about guys.
while waiting for samihah,we sat and talk. and then met samihah the the big stairs of marina square.
we met alieyah then.
waited.
shouted and shouted. like stupid fucks.
total embarrasment.
then, saw mahesh, khairul and adam.
so, we lepak with them.
went makan.
left bencoolen street at 11.40
took train.
then alighted at bedok.
then went to tampines.
reached tampines at 12.45.
dans and aizat were waiting.
then shazni came down.
we sat and talk.
at the same time, i studied.
then dans went home at 3am.
left aizat,julie,dayah,safirah and shazni and andi.
after that, aizat followed to cousins's place.
didnt sleep.
he went up because he is close to shazni.
and shazni offered him to go up.
then, he went home.
he had kompang.
julie stayed.
was very sleepy.
we ALL slept at 6.
played games la.
played ps2 la.
lepak like mad.
then talk and talk and talk.
like chicken backside!
then i went home at 6.30 pm
tiring.
went home, chatted with beautiful friends.
settled for nazirul's dnt stuffs.
did homework and waited for bombay to finish remixing the songs.
thanks to him
owe him alot.
slept at 1.30

thats all.
:)

Never Again is one of the best songs i have in mind!
so suited for men who wanna hurt girls feelings.
haha.
back up against the wall!!
today dated 18th August.
just woke up.
chatting with Muhd Haddy Khairul Aqma.
wanted to tell him about watching fireworks.
usual thing, gonna have tuition at serangoon.
then, off to go home.
might be meeting mya and mihah tonight for fireworks.
then going off to tampines for night study
maybe im just coming late.
yesterday night, i spent the whole 6 hours on the computer.
planned with arif and nazirul about rush hour.
so, monday, we are gonna watch it.
then, after planning, i told syahidah about it.
she said she can't make it.
i dunno if i should be angry with her.
because it was already planned.
how come things changed?
whatever it is, that wouldn't be a big deal.

i gtg already.
bye bye.

im gonna have tuition later.
bored currently.
rapping to crazy in love by eminem.
thanks to nazirul. im addicted to the song!
rude yet nice song.
i have to sleep late tonight.
i have to study for biology test tomorrow.
fuuh.
enough is enough.
too many test until i cant get myself organized!

Can't you see what you do to me baby?
You make me crazy, you make me act like a maniac.
I'm like a lunatic, you make me sick
You truly are the only one who can do this to me
You just make me get so crazy.

Like a devil in disguise,
You're always full of surprises
Always pullin' devises
Out your personal vibrators and dildos
You fucked yourself so much

You play your position
You never step out of line
Even though I stay in your business
You've always kept out of mine.
I wonder whats on your mind
Sometimes they say love is blind
Maybe that's why the first time I dotted your eye
You ain't see a sign.

You're the ink to my paper
Where my pen is to my pad
The moral, the very fiber
The whole substance to my rap.
You are my reason for being

The meaning of my existence
If it wasn't for you
I would never be able to spit this
As intence I do and the irony
Is you rely on me as much
as I rely on you to inspire me like you do.

The only way that I am able to stay so stable
Is you're the legs to my table
If you were to break I'd fall on my face.

You're like the root to my evil
You let my devil come out me
You let me beat the shit out you
Before you beat the shit out me.

this is not the full rap.
i just pick out those that stands out and has the true meaning.
im off.
i'll be online later at night.
tmr will be our dance pract.
hopefully all can attend as promised!
i gtg now.
byebye.
:)

had a week of falling.
firstly first, last saturday, i did some handstand, i fell.
joint on shoulders hit the ground first.
swollen and sprained.
thanks to my smart-ness.
mum massaged.
today, did again.
fell again.
again, i didnt learnt from mistakes.
this time, butt hit the ground first.
the butt bone.
fuuuh!
then, the hand hit with loud thud.
then elbows scratched.
then,while dancing, lishah accidentally hit my hand with her elbow.
wahliao.
wake up call sey!
now, its like a little swollen.
more like ouch la!
tmr will be the auditions.
im just afraid.
just afraid i cant dance.
afraid too that i cant keep with the dance steps.
have to understand ah.
im so new sia.
now that im injured,i wonder if i can even dance tmr.
had briefing just now.
went home with nazirul and syahidah.
somehow, somewhat, i was quite afraid to tell hafiz about the remix of the songs.
so many comments, afraid it might hurt him.
i pity him.
been facing his exams.
and,we are disturbing and distracting him.
sorry fiz,will treat u somehow.
but sadly, i have to say this, we cant just depend on his remix.
so many people want things their way. so many people have other commitments.
most cant go home late.
i dont know who to blame.
whateve it is, i will try my very best to just shut up.
seems like many have no mood to dance.
then maybe they should have voice out in the very first place.
gotta do my maths paper and physics.
gonna conference with syahidah and ezzat later.
byebye
signing off!
:)

its exactly 1am on 15 august.
im tired from a whole day's work.
had my oral just now.
did fine.
no stammering.
what is the grade, i'd better pray hard i do well.
currently waiting for the file sending from hafiz is fast.
thanks for the remix dude.
love u so much.
been feeling irritated these days.
im tired from thinking.
my brain cells are dead!
the file sending is almost done.
chatting with fakhrurazi.
he is having problems.
i dunno if i should be the one.
rest assured, my problems isnt solved yet.
i'd rather mind my own business.
did my maths and physics just now.
irritating niece disturbed my concentration.
whatever it is.
after this, im going to bed.
my arm still hurts.
gonna have my auditions later.
singing and dancing.
what do u expect?
i need friends support.
urgh!
afraid.
file sending done.
im off.
im here to surpass boredom.
thats all.
hehe.
byebye
:)

What in the bloody hell am i thinking about?
to think i even got myself a B4 for MALAY?!!!!
u better buck up la julyanna binte mohamed jamil!
this is so not myself already.
i aint talking much about results.
it wont bring me any good.
here i am, blogging again to surpass my time telling what i have been doing and what had been happening.
tomorrow will be my English Oral.
another pressure for me.
and why in the blue moon am i online?!
i better end this shit.
im simply upset yet i would just put up a fake front.
i wanna study for my fnn now.
im unwell.
so much for doing some handstand.
now,i strained my nerves on my left arm.
im in pain.
mum massaged me just now.
i was in real pain.
but too bad, even if i tell,would anybody care?
nope. cos noone feel it.
same goes to my heart, hurt?
yeah.
people just understand.
they dont feel unless they are facing the same shit.
the devil is back!
im gonna resume to my normal shit.
spending endless hours in the library.
doing my self revising.
i had a deal with fatimah.
to my graduating peeps.
just me,syahidah,samihah,ezzat,nazirul,arif,omar and kenny.
we will have our deal.
for those who scored the highest will get a treat from each an everyone of us.
we will make a chalet even.
hows that?
in for that deal?
im up for it!
i cant stand not working towards my aim.
be it.
im not smart.
so, i have to be hardworking.
i gotta start on teachers day rehearsal.
time is limited.
after our oral, they will have prelims.
after their prelims, what will julyanna do?
her prelims!
goddamn.
its so time consuming.
yet again, im willing to sacrifice.
but do understand.
im missing my men.
good luck in everything u guys do okeh?
my two detectives, will treasure u guys.
scandalism attacks!
whatever shit happens, im up for my shit.
i am not gonna bother of what happens ahead of me.
for, i am what i wanna be.

i need no man to sleep with me to get me to do well.
i need myself, my subconcious mind and my wits to do the best i can.
bless me my dear loves.

<3
Controlling the brain, ball play you in the face
They shake the spot, she's just another case

Easy for a good girl to go bad
And once we gone (gone)
Best believe we've gone forever
Don't be the reason
Don't be the reason
You better learn how to treat us right
Cause onces a good girl goes bad
We're gone forever

You people get that?
im a bad girl gone bad!
just gone bad.
still fresh.
NOT ROTTEN.
say it or i'll rot u to death.


siging off (while singing)

i want my shits!
i was chatting with nazirul late night yesterday.
he was telling me about how i ended up getting my sore throat.
he merely said it was due to PUSH POPS!
okay la. shall listen to u detective!
then we ended talking about shit.
because i was telling him, he will never be my shit.
then he said "i will give u a clean pure shit"
then he said "its called the holy shit"
haha.
then i said "ok. i give u a crimson red one."
he asked "what kind of a shit is that?"
i said "BLOODY SHIT!"
then i said "arif will get a non-virgin shit!"
he asked again "why?"
i answered "fuckshit!"
he was laughing his way out.
i said "syahidah will get the non-educated shit."
he asked "wah. why?"
i said "she is a stupidshit!"
he said "wahh..all got their shit. urs is the nicest shit."
i just laughed.
then he was very sarcastic about push pops.
he told me he will buy me one whole carton of push pops!
damn sarcastic kan!
wahliao! damn bad la that guy!
but we had a deal about him quitting smoking.
he said "i wont want to waste my money just like that. i would rather spend my money by buying u things or bring u somewhere."
WAH!!!
am i hearing right?
haha.
sweet kan?
i am always wondering why the way he and arif treat me and the way they treat syahidah is like two different worlds.
they bullied syahidah, they criticise syahidah.
yet, as for me, like damn different.
no matter how lame i am, at least they smile.
they wont shout "LAME!! LAME!!"
like what syahidah gets.
even samihah gets like how syahidah gets.
more like OOPSS!
haha.
today is 12 August.
yesterday i went for my tuition.
went home then went out again.
went study and lepak at eunos.
we were playing with some shits.
those who were there :shyam,dinah,danial hadi,razi,bob,haddy and later on mihah and mya came.
then aizat and nash came.
bob thought me how to handstand.
me and dinah kene kacau the moment nash and aizat came.
i was singing "you are not alone.."
then mihah and mya disturbed me. TERIMA KASIH!
haha.
then aizat came and hugged me.
usual thing.
then lepak.
mihah and dinah were playing some stunts.
so damn kecoh. then mengumpat about dancers.
about tangan kejong!
hahahaha.
then i was telling mya and mihah about dinah.
dinah dulu, damn damn irritating.
about swimming la. about wild things la.
so many la.
about nipples la.
wahliao!
hahahaha.
then some people ask me to massage.
then laugh our ass out.
then went home.
went home, mummy lecture.
bla bla bla.
same thing happened.
same story.
same old talks.
i wanna shut my ears, i cant.
whatever it is.
tomorrow will be my MALAY O LEVELS RESULTS!!
i have to be prepared to face whatever results i get.
b3 would be good enough for me
however, i aimed to get A2
hopefully la.
im nervous.
GOD BLESS ME!

my heartbeat skips a beat!
oh shit.
not my shits i mean!
help me ok.
everyone,pray hard for me.
i love u!

TWO EXES....GREAT PAIN!haha.

we cant help it but to end it dear babies.

u both wanted it. we cant save it.

as for helmi, it has ended long time ago.

for aizat, goodbye.

as for both, u both have the girl of your choice.

good luck.

i'll be fine. no worries about me.

9th august and 5th august meant alot for me last time.

for now, i'll be the hard-headed one.

i'll pretend we never share any past.

im over everything.

aizat: we watched the fireworks yesterday. we talked things. maybe it wont work. u may have heartpain the night before. but i just find that there is no point dwelling about the past. i dont know if im over u or its just too much pain that i have to bear. i miss u yet i hate what happened to us. lets just smile over things ok. after so long i havent literally been talking to u, yesterday, we did.

helmi:how was life lately? been great for u? heard that u have been having problems about ur girlfriend. yet im in no position to interfere. heard too that now ur fine with her. great then. i hope what happened in the past,opens an eye for u. im happier that we can talk normally now. love the fact that we are more like friends instead of parting because of what had happened.

hope things continue going fine alright?

much love from me to both of u. stay smiling.

:)

recent pictures.
i have been to marina square for 3 consecutive days.
whoa!
alot had happened these days.
these are the pictures i have with me.
it was NDP on 9th of august.
so, what happened on that auspicious day?
i met adal at millenia walk long john for our study
saw nabilah with her bf i guess.
so what.
its none of my business.
after that, dans, aizat,razi,hazim,hakim,nash,haddy,shyam and fadhli came.
sat there.
they ate.
i was still studying.
then some people when banging on the table showing the number two.
sadistic julie said "for what? its over."
he said "i heartpain tau"
i asked out of curiosity, "why?"
he answered, "i was thinking of the past"
i said "ouh.okay. but its over"
he said "i know. look at my dance steps and i'll tell u if its over or not"
he did his whatever groove.
and shook his head telling me its not.
i just said "i dunno ah"
and i ignored him.
and bla bla bla.
lepak with samihah,shyam,fadhli and mya and him.
watch fireworks together.
"Carik-pasal"-samihah went saying : julie and aizat, if u see the fireworks, make a wish.
i just smiled.
then she said "eh! skali ader bunga api buat number 42. tapi four dier tak keluar2. cumer number 2"
wah!
carik pasal.
we just smile.
nothing can be helped.
its over!!!!
we lepak with them.
talked and stuffs.
laughed.
i went off by 10.45.
mummy had been calling me.
good thing saw lishah on the way.
her brother sent me.
reached home at 11 plus.
talked to darling samihah on the phone.
she was scolding me about how sadistic i was.
omg la.
sad,but true.
afraid,but we cannot do anything.
sick, i have to stand still.
whatever it is, i have to keep telling myself i can do it.

thanks for everything guys.
thanks for the love.

muacks.
:)

im dead sick at the moment.
i really have no voice.
my detective says its due to sucking too much push pops.
haha.
fine mr detective.
i will refrain myself from sucking on it too much.
hehe.
currently planning some study outing with afdal.
today is NDP.
gonna go watch fireworks with my friends later.
see u all there.
im gonna have 5 days holiday.
one down..4 more to go.
monday will be school reopens
i have loads of homework.

whatever it is.
today remarks the day i survived through the long struggle of getting myself in control.
9th of august.
it has been over.
he whispered in my ears yesterday
"julie...tomorrow"
and i just went "urgh"
i cant feel it anymore.
it has changed.
we havent been any closer than last time.
sadly, its true.
today is my SUPPOSE TO BE 2 years with him.
last 5th aug is my SUPPOSE TO BE 4 years with helmi.
two exes, brought great pain.
thanks.
somehow, 9th august has mean nothing.
it will soon fade away unless we save it.
which i dont think it will happen.
sorry my love, be happy with the girl u love.
im going to lead my own life.
soon, if i have found the man of my choice, u will feel how i felt in the past years.
thanks for everything aite?

much love to everyone.
i see u all.
byebye.

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