


SENTOSA OUTING WAS A BLAST!
last minute shit.
little people.
but the fun was extravaganza.
so, those who went were, sya, julieee, mah and sam.
we played luge, watched songs of the sea, played skyride.
super lepak.
lepak session with lepak people.
good day.
thanks girls for the fun times.
omar did join too.
a day of laughters.
a day of fun.
and it ended.
soon, we gonna have it again girls.
you can view the pics there..
now, i understand the rationale of having more than ONE!
sungguh happening.
sungguh dangerous!
haha.
it shows that, if one hurts you, go to another!
okay.
thats a no-good advice that you should heed.
no doubt,some may think its true.
haha.
im tired actually.
i was at whitesands primary just now afternoon.
the kids were darn cute lah seyy.
good luck for SYF babies.
haha.
i'm gonna knock out soon.
byebye loves.
call me up if there's anything!
fact : when's FOUR?

WHOII...super old pic sia.
hahaha.
okay.
im tired right now.
had my chingay practice just now.
i understand that i was lazy the past days that i did not even bother to post my blog up.
okay.
yesterday..
i was out with hidayah.
she applied for her course and then we headed off to town.
two piggies at town on a beautiful monday.
whatthehell.com sak.
so apparently, we went to national library first to borrow books.
feeling bookworm katerkan...
so, we grab each of ourselves a book and took a bus to town.
so much for WALKING.
haha.
at town, we met WAN MAGIC.
sat and chatted with him and his friends.
then his friends headed off for work.
whose left?
julie, hid and wan.
talked cock and all.
then wan went back home.
left the two MQs.
we jalan2...go makan at lucky plaza!
okay...this i got to tell you...
hidayah....she die2 wanna go to lucky plaza for ayam penyet!
pregnant or what siah!
haha.
and....i thought she had money!
but NO!
i had to pay for her.
blardy dum dum!
so, we ate at the ayam penyet ria.
no wonder she knows where..its her place.
she is a MINAH INDON!
hahaha.
then we went to fareast.
we wanted to look for belts.
so yea.
gonnna customize one next week.
she saw her colleague.
okay. a handsome indian somehow.
skin tone i guess.
hahaha
then, we window shopped the whole of fareast.
temptation sia!!
haha.
it was already 9.
we were worn out.
macamfuck.com.
we walked to SMU.
on the way..
i decided to crack some lame jokes to her.
she was laughing and laughing and we were so high.
she did not realise a blardy public phone in front of her.
what did she do???
BANG!
and julyanna...
hahaha.
what did i do???
instead of helping her.
i slipped off these words which was so unintentional.
i said "hah! mampos kau!"
omg!
that was so jahat.
but that was so funny.
to think that i did not have the initiative to help, i cursed her instead!
then, we reached SMU...
we parted from then one.
today, i went to PA for my Chingay practice.
things went well.
the only thing was, we had to wait for Jane.
she was late.
so we had to drag the practice to a later time.
we tested our floats and all.
fuyyyoo!!
best!
just now, aper angin sak.
carik topic eh nak berbual?
haha.
someone msg me larhs.
what the hell.
get a life sak.
talk about my cousin,mimie.
so what if he does breakdancing and beatboxing?
he has talents, let him be.
okay okay.
now, i am so the takbolehtahan.com
penat!!
i'm going off.
i need to rest
i have a school to teach tmr.
i have to go to whitesands primary.
then, i'll be going to SENTOSA!!
yippeee yay yay...yippeee yippeeee yay!
okay.
shut up dumb fuck!
im going to sleep now.
it's already 1.15am.
byebye loves...
fact: ahhh. now, it's proven. just listen to the song pressure by paramore. we're better off without YOU!

the thought of me getting 23 points for my O levels is far beyond my expectations
i did not know,the long wait is now over.
time flew so fast that i did not realise how much things have changed.
however, having to achieve almost 60% of the poly courses is a great satisfaction.
i mean, i have done my papers and i did not even dare expect the best from me.
this does not mean, my pathway through education ends here.
no ordinary achievements could come to me if it wasn't for hardwork.
i am happy with the fact that i did, a just.
however at the back of my mind, i knew i could have done better.
this too doesn't demoralise me one bit to give up on every hope that everyone has given me.
i thank Allah for his blessings. i thank everyone who has supported me all this while. i thank those who has motivated me through all the long struggle i had in my past years.
my journey doesn't end here.
i have to move on.
maybe, this is a blessing after having so much problems in my life so far eversince the start of 2008?
i guess so.
the fact that everyone i loved left me, is something i had to overcome.
it wasn't bad afterall.
the fear of having to disappoint my loved ones, is one of the greatest fear i have.
deep down, i planted this simple principal of my life "life is no easy way out. i have to work to achieve it.".
and now, my friends and i, are going on separate ways.
i do admit, when writing this blog, my tears flows gallons of water.
im sincere about my true feelings.
i feel sad for those who did not do well.
but my dear babies, you did your best.
i really hope, our friendship doesn't end here.
i appreciate you in my life.
im sad too we did not excel together.
i know i can't be self- centred and not think of any of my friends feelings.
this time, im crying tears of joy.
at the same time, this 'rojak' feelings is killing me.
it kills me deep down that we are not achieving the same way as we should.
one by one, you will see everyone leave.
i am crestfallen to see us this way.
omar and syahidah, im sorry to hear about you.
im sorry too i cant do my best but to console you.
we have tried our best.
eventhough we might not meet as often, deep down, your name is carved in my heart.
as of for samihah, ezzat, khairiyah.
all the best for your future endeavor.
we might part, but i will always remember you people.
i dont ever wanna break this bond we created neither do i even wanna see us part.
but life is all about leaving and moving on.
i love you guys with all my heart.
i just wanna apologise for all the wrongdoings that i have done.
whether we might meet in the future, thats a different case.
we must meet every now and then dearies.
im sorry if i cant be there to cry with you.
but i hope you know how much it hurts me deep down to see us this way.
lets move on sweet babies.
we shall conference as per normal.
we shall call as per normal.
i dont want to break this beautiful friendship.
:)
now, im back from tampines mall.
had outing with shazni, kak nor, mummy and sister.
mummy treated us makan.
thanks mum.
i was in uniform still with shazni.
he scored more or less like mine.
im happy to get most of the courses.
but that does not determine the correct pathway that i might go.
however, im happy that i did not disappoint my family members.
thank god they are fine with my results.
now, im gonna seek my rights.
haha!
i want my freedom!
haha.
okay.
i suppose, i have to stop here.
im getting more and more shagged.
chatting with hidhir right now.
i'll see you people online.
byebye!
:)

PS: I THINK IM FALLING AGAIN.okay.
stop JULIE!
back from hospital with mummy and daddy and emilya.
whole day, i was at home.
what was i doing?
nothing much.
smsing wawan, watch tv, online and then sms wawan again then watch tv then online.
super no life.
then at 6 plus, then i went out.
went to SGH.
follow mum.
then went home
reached home at 11 plus.
then now, im at home.
fact : i did not know, i am better off without you. chehh.. macam real.
okay.
wished him late.
thats on behalf on betty too.
hehs.
okayy.
im now in front of my laptop.
chatted with omar, wawan, heyya and bibi.
now, all offline.
im updating my blog now.
bored.
been days since i update.
back from audition.
in the noon, taught whitley.
then off to audition at clake quay.
damn worn out.
reached home at 10 plus.
i was out since 2pm.
met abang and all.
what a tiring day.
join chingay this year.
my schedule is gonna be tight.
sads.
thursday, RESULTS.
lagi suay.
im gonna cry soon.
good luck sey aku.
confirm corrupted.
boohoo.
ITE, here i come!
okay lah.
my phone, SUCKS.
it will switch off ITSELF!
stupid.
its dying soon i guess.
BLARDY.
im tired.
going off.
byebye loves.
ps, happy birthday aizat.
fact : numbness felt.
back from dance.
worn out.
chatting with mya.
time now is 1.10am.
im still hogging on the net.
friendster bores me up day by day.
been online on myspace.
and whoops.
a
new friend found.okay.
i cant tell you guys much right now.
tomorrow, im meeting abang rizal.
he is going for a job interview at Cedar girls' school
he wants me to follow him.
okay.
im going off now.
byebye
fact: ehh!! congrats tau..cepat kau move on. so happy for you larhs!! ehe. * rolled eyes*.
define :
SHAGGED!ONE OF THE MOST TIRING WEEK.losing my stamina.
what to do.
on last saturday, was out doing my make up session.
then continued practice from 2pm -7pm.
i had my make up session since early morning.
as early at 7am??
yea.
thats it.
on sunday, was with my family.
went to Sakura International to have my food.
then went back home.
today, i was out again.
met mihah, omar and ezzat
what to do.
rest of my peeps are either working or schooling.
we went to ezzat's workplace and then played board games.
Settlers isn't bad at all.
we had fun.
then went to parkway to buy food for mum and brother.
followed mihah to buy her chicken.
and then done.
went back home.
gonna start my teaching sessions soon.
as soon as thursday i mean.
its gonna be a hell lot of stress.
tomorrow im gonna have dance practice.
whoi!
this week is gonna be hell.
see you peeps soon.
byebye.

look.
old picture, old hair.
i miss it.
but now, what's lingering on my mind.
old story, being opened now.
i just can't stand the fact of busybodys encircling me.
like what?
things that you are not suppose to be proud of, is being told.
call that a secret?
well i suppose secrets will remain as secrets unless BIGMOUTHS start opening.
to those readers,get this right.
whether it rings any bell to you, don't ask me.
don't even bother to get into groups and discuss what you just have read.
just mind your own business.
but if you happen to realise that you were once a busybody in my life, well then congrats.
you are awarded the "busybody veteran award"
put yourself in my shoe, being surrounded with kaypos.
i am sure you won't like the fact that things that are not supposed to be revealed are revealed.
well maybe, its my fault too.
for trusting too many people wholeheartedly
i simply don't get the idea of meddling with people's problem.
somewhat of a counsellor?
well, you have just reflected yourself as the most busybody soul.
the truth will be out soon.
to whoever that is involved, well, be prepared.
stop your nonsense and mind your own business.
i mean serious now.
be it that person is close or far, sure enough, the trust will be gone.
maybe, when someone loses trust on you, that's when you'll realise how bad things can get.
orang melayu selalu cakap. :kerana pulut santan binasa. kerana mulut, badan binasa.
then you' realise too, trust is worth upholding.
i am not gonna be mad for long.
but for as long as you have done these things, you ought to be taught a lesson.
no ordinary professor could teach you a good lesson.
but time and truth will.
i'm sad for whichever busybodys out there.
advice to you is, stop your nonsense.
if this has been your habit, go scrap your bad habit.
it wont do you good.
unless you listen to me, or your life will be doomed.
despite so many incidents that happens about trust and bigmouths, you still are one.
well, learn from experience.
or, knock your head with a hammer to sort back the mess in your head.
not trying to be rude but i can't stand no more, dealing with BIGMOUTHS in my life.
you get paid by doing this? nah. i suppose you don't.
don'twaste your time.
get a life, go to the library and read some books.
at least that will be more beneficial than dealing with people's life.
thank you.
today, im going out with my friends.
we are going to eat at seoul garden.
tomorrow, i am going to school for some make up session.
now, everything is fine.
friends are back.
thank god.
my schedule are out.
and i'm starting to teach next week.
okay lahh.
at least im doing something good.
instead of caring about people's problems.
haha.
byebye darls.
im going off. syahidah will come later to my place.
im bored.
i need to do some cleaning up and i want to eat.
byebye!
fact : now that you're gone, i shall lead my life. thank you for being there. no strings attached. :)


been a habit.
going out without eyeliner.
i shall not use it often.
depends on my mood.
yesterday, 5th January.
happy birthday to dearest mommy.
on 4th, i was out for awhile with mates to bugis.
met with dinah,aizat,dans and haddy.
lepak-ed at bugis only.
while waiting for them...those people who took an hour to reach, i got my butts off to national library.
aper angin ntah.
borrowed books and did some reading there.
feels great somehow.
i mean, at least i did something beneficial than staring at passerbys.
ada nanti orang cakap "aper stare2? tak puasa cakap ah!"
you know lah.
it's the trend these days.
staring can be an issue.
and then, after the dispute, they will tell their friends "alah. nak stare2. we are good looking"
haha.
dah carik pasal, tak sedar diri.
aperr cakap!
then the one who stared will use the common line "fikir dier bagus sangat, aku nak stare dier?"
then, those who are innocent, will then realise "it's already done. what is the big fuss"
i really can never understand the minah-ish and mat-ish world.
M- world.
okay, enough of them.
some can even say "aku minah, ada susah kan kau?"
haha.
padahal, buat mata orang sakit.
suay.
back to what i did.
at 9.45pm, i headed home.
scarycat mummy wanted to watch jangan pandang belakang.
so, i made my way home.
the next day, which was yesterday, i had make up session.
at,JURONGVILLE.
fuyyoo.
i woke up at 5.30.
got ready and lishah fetched me by cab, then fetched abang rizal.
the 5th picture, is the evidence.
busuk face, everything is so buruk!
intended to sleep, but ended up, TALKING!
haiyo.
during make up session, me and lishah, tak sedar diri.
"masih sekolah pe!!!"
padahal, umur sama.
merepek plus plus plus.
then we said "ape tengok2? kita dah keluar skolah ah! dah lah pakai baju skolah"
what the hell?!!
that is julie and lishah's case.
after the whole session is over, we went to arab street.
abang rizal wanted to get his pulut paha.
but, SUAY-LY, the shop was closed and he ended up doing something else
BOUGHT RANTAI.
abang...abang...
then we went to TONG SENG.
still the same bloody old place.
eat there. then the stupid shop-owner. babi.
"eh! you havent pay!"
i said "i thought i paid to your worker?!"
he said "no no! you havent pay"
ehhh...relax ah. tak payah pekik. malu siol.
so, they asked the worker and all. bodoh worker, never tell me its different shop.
menyusahkan orang.
so, paid and then, done
went to parco, bought lishah's shoes for school and then abang rizal went back home.
me and lishah, bought ourselves bracelet. (i shall tell you a bad news about the bracelet)
then, we lepaked at starbucks.
sat and chilled.
laughed about stupid matters and then i went to tampines to celebrate mum's birthday and bik yana's anniversary.
in the bus to tampines, both of us, tertidur2.
after that..
reached at bik yana's house, usual.
lepak, makan and all.
went to starbucks at tampines mall.
then walked back.
stayed there for a night.
overnight lah konon.
ghost movie marathon.
then we were laughing and laughing about stupid things.
grr.
wanted to go mac at 5am.
by 4, all FLAT!
haha.
too tired.
then, went expo just now afternoon.
with bik yana, shaz, nana and andi
NO MORE METRO SALE.
tahun biler sia.
haha.
so we met with mum and dad at city plaza.
makan.
then shaz and family went back home.
mum, dad and i, went to mustafa centre.
bought pillows.
haiyo.
then, someone hit my hand and my bracelet fell.
i did not realise, until i was on the way back home.
haiyo!
gonna buy a new one ah.
teruk sey.
sad.
dah sampai ajal bracelet tuu.
haha.
nvm lah.
okay okay.
gonna conference now.
chiao!
fact : get what i mean, when im fine, you dont care one bit. when im not, you keep bugging me. what a life. your part time job i guess. :(



my super buruk day.
haha.
day without eyeliner.
so yea.
went to school.
was suppose to collect the EAGLES AWARD.
grr.
but they have not transfered the cheque to school yet.
and then, today, plan was a little cock up here and there.
was suppose to be celebrating dans birthday.
just julie, lishah and dinah and abang rizal.
however, abang rizal had a school to teach.
sad but true.
so, dinah was from school.
met her in school.
and then, dans terlepas cakap to aizat.
so, he had to follow.
one down.
then i don't know how the rest ended up following.
but nevermind lah.
its over.
had a fun time too.
watched ALIENS VS PREDATOR.
then, sat at makansutra.
HUJAN!
then went to KFC.
after that, lepaked at marina square stairs and then headed home at 9.15pm.
early though.
mum is sick.
no wonder she was so ATTITUDIFIED!
so yea.
now, at home.
bored.
and nyah, banyak kau punyer move on.
fact: confuse lah kau. hurt me so much and then take back your words? get it, i really mean friends. no more. stop using me like before. i ain't any play toy. sorry. :)


on 29th, was danial hadi's birthday.
happy 16th honey.
wish you well.
take care.
on 30th, i was out picnicing with my fellow mates at Changi.
that was to celebrate the SUPER BELATED birthday for timah and akiff.
sorry guys.
it was very late.
we had nothing to give.
so yea.
after some time we have not been meeting, samihah surprised us by APPEARING!
love her loads.
sadly, ezzat couldn't join.
that goes the same for kenny and mahesh.
so apparently, it continued.
new years eve, i was at marina.
happy birthday miera and shazni.
now then, they turned 16.
i was at marina the whole night with shazni, andi and ayu.
we saw a group of bangla dancing in the middle of marina's walkway.
so kecohrable!
we were laughing and all.
and then, at 4.45 am, we met with razi small,alip,helmi,nisa,bob,hakim om,danial hadi, haddy,muhsin,bombay.
they just finished work.
so yea.
then we lepaked awhile.
then they went for breakfast at mac.
i went home.
reached home at 7am.
had my ablutions and then bumped my head on the bed.
slept till 3pm!
then woke up.
slept again at 5.
woke up at 8pm.
then went to the shop with suhaila.
and then was at home the whole day.
tomorrow, gonna go to school to take my award.
so yea.
im going off to conference.
byebye loves.
:)