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the thought of me getting 23 points for my O levels is far beyond my expectations
i did not know,the long wait is now over.
time flew so fast that i did not realise how much things have changed.
however, having to achieve almost 60% of the poly courses is a great satisfaction.
i mean, i have done my papers and i did not even dare expect the best from me.
this does not mean, my pathway through education ends here.
no ordinary achievements could come to me if it wasn't for hardwork.
i am happy with the fact that i did, a just.
however at the back of my mind, i knew i could have done better.
this too doesn't demoralise me one bit to give up on every hope that everyone has given me.
i thank Allah for his blessings. i thank everyone who has supported me all this while. i thank those who has motivated me through all the long struggle i had in my past years.
my journey doesn't end here.
i have to move on.
maybe, this is a blessing after having so much problems in my life so far eversince the start of 2008?
i guess so.
the fact that everyone i loved left me, is something i had to overcome.
it wasn't bad afterall.
the fear of having to disappoint my loved ones, is one of the greatest fear i have.
deep down, i planted this simple principal of my life "life is no easy way out. i have to work to achieve it.".
and now, my friends and i, are going on separate ways.
i do admit, when writing this blog, my tears flows gallons of water.
im sincere about my true feelings.
i feel sad for those who did not do well.
but my dear babies, you did your best.
i really hope, our friendship doesn't end here.
i appreciate you in my life.
im sad too we did not excel together.
i know i can't be self- centred and not think of any of my friends feelings.
this time, im crying tears of joy.
at the same time, this 'rojak' feelings is killing me.
it kills me deep down that we are not achieving the same way as we should.
one by one, you will see everyone leave.
i am crestfallen to see us this way.
omar and syahidah, im sorry to hear about you.
im sorry too i cant do my best but to console you.
we have tried our best.
eventhough we might not meet as often, deep down, your name is carved in my heart.
as of for samihah, ezzat, khairiyah.
all the best for your future endeavor.
we might part, but i will always remember you people.
i dont ever wanna break this bond we created neither do i even wanna see us part.
but life is all about leaving and moving on.
i love you guys with all my heart.
i just wanna apologise for all the wrongdoings that i have done.
whether we might meet in the future, thats a different case.
we must meet every now and then dearies.
im sorry if i cant be there to cry with you.
but i hope you know how much it hurts me deep down to see us this way.
lets move on sweet babies.
we shall conference as per normal.
we shall call as per normal.
i dont want to break this beautiful friendship.
:)

now, im back from tampines mall.
had outing with shazni, kak nor, mummy and sister.
mummy treated us makan.
thanks mum.
i was in uniform still with shazni.
he scored more or less like mine.
im happy to get most of the courses.
but that does not determine the correct pathway that i might go.
however, im happy that i did not disappoint my family members.
thank god they are fine with my results.
now, im gonna seek my rights.
haha!
i want my freedom!
haha.

okay.
i suppose, i have to stop here.
im getting more and more shagged.
chatting with hidhir right now.
i'll see you people online.
byebye!
:)