

y must there be such thing as confusion?
life is hard now.
freakingly difficult.
each time i haf forgotten Aizat,i hear different stories abt him.
i noe i should just forget him.
i've already accept that fact that he's not mine and only Aisyah's.
He's a different Aizat.
not the Aizat i used to know.
i dunno if he has changed or was it the real him.
things are getting chaotic in sch.
guys now act as if they dun haf feelings.
girls now getting stronger and dun cry much.
its full of complication i should say.
to me,boys are being irritants.
its a year of separation.
puasa is ard the corner.
hari raya is after puasa.
my first year celebrating without a guy.
used to haf helmi and aizat.
now.
no more.
there's no such thing as a big family.
girls are ignorant towards boys.
going out in a large group was fun.
i cant deny that fact.
but now.
i wonder if we are going out for an outing even.
maybe we are only having girls outing.
that'll be much fun.
when things haf changed, the mood changes too.
the fun we used to haf will be much of a different kind.
i only smile to certain ppl now.
aizat told me yesterday "hai julie. da sombong seh. mentang2 ader kwn baru."
wad crap!
i havent had new frens.
those ppl i mingle wif now,are those i ignored wen i was attached.
im sorry for that frens.
frens are more valueable.
as compared to having boyfrens who just gif me pain and double the pain.
boyfrens are irritants.
nahs.
the point im trying to make is,things are different.
the happiness we used to haf are much more of a different thing.
we laugh more than we used to haf.
i treasure those laughters.
whoa..
can't live a day without laughing.
bla bla.
[sigining off.]JULYANNA